Before and After

Have you ever had a dramatic event in your life, where you know and feel that there's a before and an after, where something died to be reborn, where you know life has changed you, where you were literally very close to passing away, where you know it won't be the same as before? Well, you are not alone, you are not the only one, there are many of us!

My life changed when I was 20 years old (in the prime of life), one Saturday morning on my way to work (airline), I'm running late, and to make a good impression, I call and tell my supervisor, or rather, I lie that I had an accident on 40th Street (I'll never forget this number), that I would be a little late. Her response was no problem, don't worry, and arrive safely.

To my surprise, minutes later, I have the worst car accident you can imagine. Guess where? On 40th Street (The power of words). It was so strong that I don't remember anything at all. After the call I had with my supervisor, it's as if my brain literally shut off. The only thing I remember was a voice telling me in Italian, don't worry my daughter (I'll tell you about this later).

7 hours later, I wake up as if nothing happened and seeing that I'm in an unknown place, in a trauma center, where people who are in a coma are, thinking that I had to go to work, I start taking off everything and see more than 5 people all in white coats running towards me, these people didn't want me to move, for all this, I still don't understand where I am and I say to them: I have to go to work! Where am I?

It was there that they gave me the news. You are in the Hospital, you had an accident with a cement truck (nothing more and nothing less than with a truck), you were airlifted here and on the way you were reported dead.

It was then that I was in shock, at that moment I only thought about my family, the doctors looked at me strangely very surprised, it was the miracle of the day.

The first thing I did was ask for my parents and they told me they were outside and I told them I needed to see them now (I was very determined to say this that they couldn't say no) seeing my parents' faces was when the emotion invaded my body and my soul, I felt the pain, not for me but for them.

From today my life changed, my perception changed, my way of appreciating the here and now changed (I'm still working on that) and I asked myself the big question: Why and for what? Why didn't I leave? Today begins my great awakening of Consciousness, where I also asked myself: Is there something more?

Returning to the voice I heard which is the only thing I remember, I wondered, who is it and why did they speak to me in Italian? (10 years later I got the answer and the blessing that it was a very magical and unique Being of Light who was very dear here on earth, Saint Padre Pio)

I had so many questions, so many emotions, and my curiosity began.

I started to search for information, I was hungry to know, to inquire, to explore.

Attending talks and events related to spirituality, seeking mentors, guides, coaches. I began to delve into different modalities, such as Kabbalah, Reiki, Ho'oponopono, Thetahealing, medicinal plants, meditation, breathing, sacred geometry, numerology, mandalas, the list goes on and on, each leaving a great seed in me, in my walk and in my transformation process. Being complementary to each other, working for a common good, in the best version of myself to be able to put it at the service of the community and humanity.

It was when I realized that this search was the search in me, yes of my essence.

Of my connection with the source

Of my duality

Of my fears

Of my dreams

Of my insecurities

Of my heart

Of my passion

Of my soul

Of my process

Of my mission

Of my purpose

Many of us have to go through extreme moments to become aware and begin the best journey of life, which is the journey inward, to awaken and discover how wonderful it is to walk and experience all that we are, not from the must or have to, but from the Being.

The road is not easy, but it's worth every minute and second you're on it because it's not the road but the person you're becoming, it's in that redesign, that transformation, and above all the evolution you're experiencing and observing in yourself, in your thoughts, emotions, feelings, and actions.

No one can do this for you, this is a decision you choose to make, with responsibility and on the way, teachers, mentors, angels, and the necessary information will appear.

When the student is ready, the teachers appear.

The change begins with you.

Your faithful servant

Love and Light

Fabiola Passriello.